My Spiritual Desert

Despite the tremendous amount of rain we've had in Michigan, I feel like I'm living through a drought - spiritually speaking. The land is parched and dry and I'm doing nothing to get out of it. I have no inspiration and no motivation (therefore, no blogging either). All I have the urge to do is sit around and moan and groan about my spiritual state.

It's funny. I know what I need to do to get back on the right track but I don't want to. Sure I still read my Bible and pray, but lately my prayers have been glazy and not what they should be. Each morning I read one or two chapters of something, but I feel I get nothing. And that's because right now, I'm a selfish Christian. I only want whatever is in it for me and not for God. My eyes are focused on my needs and NOT what God wants.

Coincidentally, I actually have learned something from my Bible reading (except I'm too selfish to see it). God has continually paraded scripture that tells me He's always there and that His love is never failing, even though I fail Him far too often. This morning I stumbled upon Psalm 107:8-9,

Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men, for he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things.

This scripture has started to put my focus back on God. This morning, I am going to spend some time in the Bible and pray. That is the only way I'll get out of my "spiritual desert" and back to where God wants me.

Instead of seeing a mirage ahead, I can actually see the end of the desert already.